Here we go again

I am sorry to share this news via my blog as it is highly impersonal but I honestly don’t have the energy to retell this story. After many months of successful cancer treatment and a stable CA-125, a recent blood test and CT scan has revealed that I have had a recurrence.

There is a small mass near my liver that my oncologist and the tumor board are concerned about. This will require another major surgery (unfortunately it cannot be laparoscopic as she must physically move around my liver). It may also require additional treatment whether it be a different kind of chemotherapy or some sort of infusion or new drug. At this point I am meeting with my oncologist and another in Boston to gather information to formulate the most effective treatment plan. I do not yet have a timeline for what is happening when but I will be regularly updating my blog (http://boldbaldbattle.com, tell all your friends to hop along for the ride).  Per usual my work has been very loving and supportive.

My emotional and mental state at current is stable. I’ve gone through the whole cycle of disappointment, sadness, fear, and anger. Unlike last time I’m pretty stuck on anger. Luckily, as I learned once before I have a worldwide, giant, support system and have no doubts that there will be another overflow of positive energy.

I also think I should say for the record, because I got in trouble with more than one person for this, I will NOT take Big Daddy Taxi to any doctors appointments or treatment this time.

My chin is up and so are my fists.

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20 thoughts on “Here we go again

  1. Oh sweetheart all my love and daily prayers. Fight the bastard. If there is anything at all I can do for you or get for you just say.

    • I had no idea! Thank you very much Mrs. Lanza. Your son has been one of my greatest allies through this process and I am so blessed to have gotten to know him. Thank you for your family’s love and support.

  2. Jess You are AMAZING! Your strength and will to beat this. Keep those fists up and fight your last battle. Your in my prayers and thoughts. Love you, Tricia

  3. Holy…let’s go with “crap” (this is a family website, after all). I’m sending as much good karma as I can your way. Not a fair situation! But you have a TON of people on your side! Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you or your family. Love love love you and hope you’re well SOON!!!

    • McG, despite this “family website” I am pretty sure my blog is sprinkled with profanity. It’s okay. But thank you for your love and warm energy! It’s not fair but it’s happening so we fight it (with science hehe).

      Love you!

  4. Jess, just read your blog. I am thinking of you and know that this will pass because you have the stamina, positive attitude and fists up to beat it! Love you and I will consistently send positive energy your way. So glad you have a great team of doctors on top of this! Lots of love and hugs, Karen.

  5. Tomorrow we have services at the shul, I will make sure we say a pray for you during our healing part of the service. It will have to work with all our voices going up to G-d.

    Susan Schieb

  6. Jess, we are sending prayers and lots of positive energy your way. I sucks to have to fight this again, but you are so worth the fight.
    Please let us know if we can help in anyway. Love and Prayers, Judy and John Galiney

    • Aw thank you Mrs. Galiney! It is wonderful to know that I have your family on my side. John per usual has been supportive. The next time you guys come up to visit him, let me know! I owe you all hugs.

  7. “My chin is up and so are my fists.” God I love you. You’re incredible and wonderful and full of awe-inspiring heroism. Never forget that.

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