I walked into my blood draw this morning, told Leah (the phlebotomist) to cross her fingers for improvement, went to work, and carried on with my day. On the heels of a steadily rising CA-125, I wasn’t expecting miracles. I had mentally prepared myself for the possibility that the CA-125 could increase again, warrant a CT scan, and we would just have to go from there.

As I mentioned in my last post, I was feeling at peace knowing that we have multiple contingency plans in place should the number continue to climb. I can say that since then, I’ve had a truly great week. Although nothing was certain, I had a stronger feeling of security moving forward. I cannot quite articulate why this week was different but I just felt like I was in a better place. I was able to have a fun filled weekend with friends and Cory. I generally felt focused and on point at work. Despite the never ending fatigue I felt a renewed energy that was certainly more mental than physical. I grocery shopped and prepared healthy meals full of fruits and veggies for the week. I did laundry and really cleaned the apartment (dish mountain was conquered…finally). I was even able to get a couple small work outs in.

It’s not perfect, I was at peace with what is.

Going into the blood test I had high hopes but was not totally fixated on the outcome.

Well guess what?

MY CA-125 DECREASED BY 35!!!!!!! It’s a small improvement but it’s something. I would have been amped for a 5 point decrease at this rate. I haven’t seen a decrease in weeks. Maybe it’s a fluke but for today and the next three weeks, it feels like progress.

So with that I leave you with all the feels…