I want to first thank you for your ongoing outreach and concern regarding the state of my health. It certainly means a lot to me.

A more typical Jess would be chronicling the hospital play by play, looking for the perfect google image to compliment. Buuuuttt let’s face sometimes you need to take a step back and process your own thoughts and feelings.

Where we left off was whether or not it was right to place a G-tube. Long story short there are a few ways a gtube could be placed, but none of the three options would be deemed safe. Ultimately no surgery was had and a few days later I was sent home. We had been NPO for a month so it was expected that I may throw up occassionally but hopefully once the new chemo kicks in my symptoms would subside.

I was home just one night before I began vomittiming more in one evening than i ever thought was humanly possible. I called my parents around 6:30am and without a second thought they jumped in the car and drove almost 2 hours on Christmas to get me only to drive another 45 mins to get me back to Women and Infants. They are truly saints.

On the back end Sheila, my doctor, caseworker, and one of my nurses were all prepped for my arrival. I have never been so happy to be in a hospital. After one night of feeling totally exhausted and defeated to finally arrive in a place that could bring me at least momentary comfort.

So where do we go from here? Im not sure. We have bumped chemo up one day to tomorrow. Aside from that I truly have no more information.

Thanks for being patient with me as I navigate this difficult time. I have been slow with returning texts and messages but please know I appreciate them from the bottom of my heart.