Holy insomnia. I actually did sleep for a few hours last night but it was one of those sleeps where your dreams are so intense and bizarre that you don’t feel rested. Full disclosure- I don’t fully remember all of the details but it was some combination of being part of being a newly retired olympic gymnast and Big Brother contestant. Neither of which I’d be very good at in real life (can’t do flips, bad a comps, not competitive). Although it beats my Stranger Things inspired dream from the previous night that left me a little hesitant to find my way to the bathroom in the dark (note to self: string Christmas lights and befriend Eleven for protection).
I’ve been awake from 3am-6am to embrace the weird/non sleep and get caught up on Big Brother.
Non-fans of any of these shows…just move on. Clearly the sleep deprivation is not conducive to a clear and concise actual treatment update.
Anyway, I’ll keep the rest semi-short and sweet.
Monday I had the new port placed. I was told it would likely go on the left side of my chest but they did an ultrasound beforehand and determined that despite scar tissue from the previous port they would still have no problem placing it where it was before on my right.
The port was placed under VIR (vascular and interventional radiology) at Rhode Island Hospital. It was the same place where the first port and PICC line were put in so I had an idea of what to expect. I was under conscious sedation so although I was awake sterile barriers prevented me from seeing what was happening and IV drugs prevented me from feeling it.
I will be honest, leading up to that day I wasn’t nervous or concerned but when I was in the waiting room after check in I had a mini-moment where I was feelning pretty overwhelmed. Cory was with me and talked me through it like the champ he is. I don’t even think it was the procedure itself that freaked me out, I just felt triggered by simply being there. Remember, my only experiences at RIH have involved getting ports placed or the ICU for septic shock. Not a great track record for fond memories.
The night after surgery I didn’t sleep at all. I was in a lot of pain and nothing seemed to take the edge off. I can best describe it like Conor McGregor slugging you in the collarbone as hard as he can.
I returned to work the next day, which happened to be “moving day”. Our office was renovated over the summer so we were moving back in from our temporary space in the library. I couldn’t have been more useless on moving day. As always, I’m fortunate to have such compassionate co-workers. Shout out to Doug Hillis for moving my boxes for me. I was able to slowly but surely get unpacked and I am so thrilled with the new space. The office layout will be a little different to get acclimated to but my actual office looks phenomenal.
The pain has subsided over the past few days and luckily I can say it’s no longer sore. At chemo yesterday, Rosa removed the big bandage and revealed that it’s healing nicely. We were able to use the port with no issues for my Taxol infusion.
New Port…not Newport.
Thanks to Stacey for the chemo visit (I owe you a better hang out…Eskimo King stat). Double thanks to my parents for the post-chemo surprise visit yesterday!
Anyway, it’s a decent hour and I need to get ready for work.
Good Morning Jesse ~ I’ve watched some of the those episodes, so I understood the “11” & the “Christmas Tree lights” ~ I was on the edge of my chair sometimes. I’m happy that your “new port” has adjusted to your body, & I pray that it will serve you well as you continue to kick cancers a#%!!! I’m also happy for you in your “newly renovated”work surroundings ~ begin again ~ new port, new office ~ stay strong ~ kick cancer ~ you can do it!!!
Sending you love and best wishes going forward with you chemo and healing ~ heart and soul ~ love and light always !!!
Glad you got your new port and continuing to ROCK it 🙂 Not gonna lie, I’m obsessed with Big Brother and always fantasized I’d be a contestant although I’d probably be a bad player and end up playing like Zakiyah (not the whole showmance bit, my husband would be pretty upset about that..but the “not winning at any comps” and poor social game) Glad I haven’t seen you in awhile (don’t take offence to that)
Love your sense of humor, Jessy! Better days ahead….