The Pine Cone


I had lunch with  a friend at work today. She is a fellow cancer crusher and beat the crap out of some breast cancer last year. Unfortunately due to the timing of my recurrence, the holidays, traveling, busy work schedules, and what have you, I was never able to tell her that I had recurred. In some respects it was harder for me to tell my cancer-crusher friends about my recurrence. I feared that I would trigger any lingering fears they had regarding their own medical challenges. It did not feel right to just send something like this through a work email:

To: Judy

From: Jessica

Subject: Womp womp

Hey Judy,

Any fun holiday plans coming up?  Oh by the way I have cancer again. How are you?

Keep it classy,

Your pal Jess

Needless to say, Judy ended up finding out through my blog. Two months later we were able to meet and talk about it. Now something you should know about Judy is that she has a phenomenal perspective when it comes to illness. We share a similar viewpoint that all of this chaos has to serve a purpose. With her insight came a bonus gift:


She said that this is a very special pine cone. It came from a Sequoia tree.

YUP this kind of tree:


Impressive, no?

Judy explained to me that in order for this little pine cone to turn into a massive and beautiful tree, it must burn. In order for Sequoia trees to regenerate, they must be exposed to the extreme element of wildfire.

The pinecone is now in my possession to remind me that through the chaos of the fire (cancer), I am on the other end determined, wiser, and stronger than before. No longer a mere pine cone.

What a beautiful metaphor.


4 thoughts on “The Pine Cone

  1. I think many of us who read your blogs and hold you in our daily prayers and heart, believe that you are giving US a gift. Your ability to write with such courageous candor is truly a gift you are sharing with so many people. I believe one of your purposes may have always been to reach a larger audience because you do have a message that needs to be heard. Always looking forward to your next post. Hugs and love from CT.

  2. There is a book I am reading called “Kitchen Table Wisdom ‘by Rachel Naomi Remen M.Stories that heal. This book is a delicious treasure that I read every day for inspiration. Jessica… your writing truly is a gift as well..Sharing it ,helps us become more whole and the human experience more meaningful.That pine cone is a symbol of so many things…but mainly the spirit you share with us all . Love to you, Mom.

  3. Jess, I love reading your blogs. Your blogs are so inspirational and I look forward the next one each time. You should really think about having them published. You are an amazing woman. Keep up the fight… you will beat the hell out of this! Love you, Tricia

  4. judy is the shit. i don’t know how i ever got so lucky to take care of such brilliant human beings. truly…my life is so much richer because of people like you and judy.

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